Inner Water, True Identity

Neville's Inner Vision

Picture the scene as the inner theatre of your own consciousness. The five husbands are the five habitual identities you have worn—roles of lack, fear, desire, and the names you call yourself. When the inner voice says, Go, call thy husband, it is not seeking an external mate but inviting you to question the inner authorities you serve. I answer, I have no husband, and that honest admission reveals a truth: the self defined by past attachments does not define the I AM. Jesus’ further words—thou hast said truly, for thou hast had five husbands—remind me that the current thought I cling to is a mere state, not the nature of my being. The final "not thy husband" is the gift: the present thought is not my ultimate reality. The living water is awareness, the I AM already within, ready to trouble the surface of appearances and dissolve attachment when I turn toward it. My turning is a turning of identification—from external names to the inner, constant I AM. I am not condemned; I am clarified, and as I drink, my inner weather is renewed.