Inner Bargains Of Desire

Neville's Inner Vision

Genesis 30:14-16 becomes a map of inner negotiation. The field is your present consciousness; the mandrakes are vivid images that awaken desire and supply a remedy for inner tension. Leah’s insistence that she has hired Jacob with her son's mandrakes is the moment you recognize two pulse streams within you: a longing for union and a demand for rightful definition. Rachel’s plea to take the mandrakes is the impulse to possess the favorable results, the tendency to jump to outcomes. When Jacob returns and lies with Leah, the act symbolizes that alignment occurs only when the inner states are invited to cooperate, not coerced. The I AM, your true consciousness, does not enforce by force but harmonizes by imagination. The outer events are symbolic of your inner turning toward a unified state: you choose a picture that satisfies both longing and integrity, you breathe into the sense, and you keep the feeling as real as possible. In that moment, old friction dissolves and a new rhythm of relationship is felt as already accomplished by your awareness.