Engedi Pursuit Within

Neville's Inner Vision

Notice that the outward chase is but the mirror of your inner state. Saul represents the old king consciousness, the assertive ego pursuing the David within—the living idea already anointed by God. Engedi, the wilderness, is your interior stillness where a fountain of truth may be found. The three thousand signify the zeal, fear, and habit marching under outward order; the rocks of the wild goats indicate jagged thoughts and hard circumstances that press you to act in accordance with the old king. Yet this scene is not punishment but a summons to awaken your inner sovereignty. When you accept that God is the I AM behind every scene, the pursuer loses its power and the pursued becomes a symbol of your true self. The conflict becomes a school of perseverance, building endurance until the inner kingdom—the kingly I AM—resides not by conquest of others but by quiet assertion within. Your experience of trials is the dramatic proof of consciousness becoming aware of itself.